So this week was it…the launch of my workshop series How to Rock Your Breakup: A Step-by-Step Guide to Rising Above and Finding Self-Love, and a brand new beginning for me. I didn’t take holding this workshop lightly, in fact it’s been in my periphery for the better part of 6 months, but I hesitated to make it a reality because my self-doubt was overwhelming. I have honestly never been so scared, nervous, overwhelmed, or in full panic mode about something in my entire life, and I truly felt it ALL this week.
When I first conceptualized this workshop, I imagined it on a Friday night or Saturday afternoon for a 3 or 4 hours time slot, but it dawned on me that what women who are struggling through breakups and divorces need most is a sense of community. They want to feel supported and nurtured and they want to be heard. How was I going to accomplish this in just a few short hours? The answer was – I wasn’t. Instead, I decided to run the workshop as a 6 week series that outlined the steps I used to overcome my divorce. Seems like it would be pretty simple right? Just talk about what you did and there you go! But no, that was not going to do it for me, I knew I wanted this to resonate with women in a way that touched their souls, and impacted their future in a positive way.
As much as I felt I could prepare, I prepared. But I was still left feeling terrified of not being enough. What if these women got up and left half way through the session? What if they asked for a refund? What if they didn’t come back for any more sessions? It was all so much to think about, and there were times I really questioned what I was thinking when I put this together. But before I could think too much, it was Tuesday, May 2nd, and the women were coming, whether I liked it or not! Would people come? Would there be a bunch of no-shows? Would I be able to get a word out once it was time to start?
YES!!!! YES they would come, YES they would be open and willing to absorb healing, and YES I would be able to speak my truth. Not only did I speak, but EVERYONE spoke. The immediate sense of community and connectivity was something I’ve never experienced in my life. it was actually beyond anything I could have ever imagined. I realized almost immediately that these women were some of the bravest, strongest, most incredible women I’d had the pleasure of sharing space with, and that my life had irrevocably changed the instant they walked in the door. I’m still floating on cloud 9 to be honest, because it brings me so much joy to know that women can help and support women in such a positive, inspiring way. There were hugs, there were kisses, there were caring words and loving hands. It was beautiful, and complex and yet at the same time so simple. People loving people – people they didn’t even know just two hours before. What an immaculate concept.
And so we will continue next week, and the weeks after that, to learn from each other, and love ourselves hard. I know I’ve made lifelong friends, and I can’t wait to see them all thrive and shine as they rise above their breakups and divorces. There is so much beauty in the world, and I am so grateful to have found a small part of it with this workshop. My soul sings tonight. XO