It’s pretty amazing how quickly something, and someones, can become such a huge part of your life. Just two years ago I hadn’t started this blog yet, and I didn’t even know that a place called Soul Sessions existed in the world…man was I in for some fun days ahead! I’m not going to lie, today has been a pretty sad day for me, because as the coming week looms, I am filled with the dread of knowing that it is the last week that Soul Sessions (in its current incarnation) will be open. I’m feeling a bit lost, kind of scared, and like a place where I spend 4 out of 7 days a week is disappearing – and if you can’t tell yet, I don’t like it one bit!
When I first found Soul Sessions in an effort to find my passion, I was a wreck. I was newly separated from my husband, I was convinced I wouldn’t be able to dance because of my arthritis (and I made sure to talk to everyone about it, because I didn’t want anyone to think I just couldn’t move well, you know?! Insert head-shaking at myself here lol), and I cared a whole lot about what other people thought (see previous sentence for validation). Despite all this, I loved Soul Sessions from the minute I walked in the door. It was different there, I could just feel it in my soul, and I knew I wanted to spend time in this space. Part of their mantra was to keep your eyes on your own mat, and this was one of my favourite parts about the studio, because I had never been active in a space where I didn’t feel judged, or feel like other people were watching me, but at Soul Sessions, I felt like I’d come home. Everyone was so incredibly kind, the dance instructor Allie was a goddess, and the owner Alicia was welcoming and excited to have me there. I loved every second of it.
I kept dancing there for about 6 months in 2015 before I met Ghost Guy (see this post for deets…prepare yourself for general awfulness though!) and fell into some shitty old habits (wherein I give up all the things I love doing to be available to some dickhead who may or may not Skype me when he says he will), and from the end of December 2015 through September 2016, I didn’t make it into Soul Sessions…seriously, not even once. I bought a Summer Pass to their new location thinking I’d go back soon, but it just never happened…and that’s where that amazing dancing goddess Allie comes back into the picture. I had continued to follow her on social media, and decided that I wanted her to teach me how to cook some amazing vegan food (she’s also a kick ass holistic nutritionist!), so she came over to my house for some private lessons in late September of last year…once again, my life was changed.
Not only did Allie convince me to come dance with her again (that very night in fact), but she offered me the opportunity to be mentored by her, and learn how to teach dance classes – an absolute dream come true. So began what have been some of the most fun-filled, dance-soaked, community-based months of my life. I was lucky enough to become immersed in the Soul Sessions community again, and have met some incredible women who love to dance as much as I do; met fellow entrepreneurs who have championed me through the launch of operationpassion.com; and, most importantly, have made some lifelong friends who constantly and consistently lift me up, and cheer me on. Blessed does not even begin to describe how I feel.
As I’m sure you can imagine, the thought of saying goodbye to all this in just one short week is nothing short of devastating. That may sound dramatic, but in a way, Soul Sessions has helped me become me again, and reminded me of the spirit that burns within me. That (of course) will not leave with the physical space closing, but it’s sad and I’m going to let myself sit with the sadness tonight. I know the community will live on, and the dancing will continue in new spaces, and the friends will never leave, but I guess this is where the fear of the unknown has me scrambling a bit. It’s truly a test of trusting in the Universe, and the new path that this community is forging ahead on together…always together.
So to Allie – thank you for getting me moving again, and for becoming one of my closest friends and biggest supports. You are an incredible woman, and you have done so much to help so many women – you are amazing. To Alicia – thank you for creating this space and for bringing us all together – you are going to do amazing things, and should be so proud of what you’ve accomplished with Soul Sessions. To Sara, Mel, Jenny, Amanda, Katrina, Jenna, Paula, Jayne, Holly, Katie, Lisa, Parul, Beth, Katherine, Sandra, Kelly, Cathy, Alicia, and all the incredible women I’ve met over the past two years – thank you for being a part of my life, and for supporting me while I learned who I am (again) – I’m so grateful to know you all. I know the story will continue, and I can’t wait to see what new booty-shaking adventures we get into over the coming years. For now, let this post be a testament to what women can accomplish when they share space in a positive, loving way together, and what it can mean to find your passion, and yourself, all over again.